The wheels on the bus.

Have you ever stared out the window, lost in thought, observing all of your surroundings. All of a sudden something beautiful catches your eye, and for the rest of the day this small occurrence is burned into your mind. I was sitting on the bus just one ordinary day, passing by Walker, and all this meaning came from this short phrase on a faded brick wall.

Things I love right now....

INFINITY LOOP SCARFS

LACE TIGHTS

ERBERT AND GERBERT'S

DECORATIVE TREES

TRASHY ROMANCE NOVELS

MY RECENT DREAMS

Fantasy Man.

         


         Ever felt like a song summed up exactly how you are feeling? 
      
   I feel lost putting myself into something that has no real meaning. I'm searching for someone and a feeling that seems impossible. A Fantasy. I feel ashamed, I've experienced enough to know better. I'm letting my emotions drive my passions, and my wants. 


  " And if everything is measured by the hole it leaves behind, then this mountain has been leveled and there's no more diamonds in the mine." 


  This want has blinded me to an unreasonable amount. I'm in the dark playing roulette. Stepping back and accepting what I want isn't going to find me, and I cannot find it, is more difficult than any other battle I could fight. Maybe forgetting it will give me a chance, or a long deserved kindness. 


       But as hopeless and pointless it all may be, songs don't sound any less sweet, and that look you see in someones eyes when they're with someone else doesn't make me any less hopeful, and envious. Maybe I'll see eyes like that staring back at me.