Former Hopeless Romantic.

  As I get older, I realize more and more how rare it is to come upon a truly genuine person. I once use to go by the policy: Trust until someone has given you a reason to no longer trust them, and then give them a second chance afterward. So broken trust, and 11 chances later, I think I realize I was looking at this particular situation through rose colored lenses, and a little too much faith in humankind. No, I am not bitter, no I am not Anti- love. I am anti- putting up with people's bull shit :)
I understand everyone has their flaws, everyone makes mistakes, and hey a lie every once and while happens. But when you start doing it all the time, and you can feel good about what you are doing, and avoid keeping your promises, hurt people imensely and continue to find ways to justifying what you are doing and tell yourself that you have some sort of reason... there is something really horribly, and horrifyingly wrong with the way you are thinking.

The result of being that kind of person is destroying other peoples outlook on the world, ability to show feeling, ability to persue love and there overall happiness with themselves.
I guess my personal rules of life are: PEOPLE COME FIRST. I don't care what is going on in your life, but nothing can be more important than people you love. I will always put the people who are there for me, and need help first. When you really care about someone, give them your all, don't make them sit there and pour their heart out to, and let them give you things that you know that you cannot give in return, if that is the case, accept the situation and let that person be happy. Let them move on. And if you care enough you will be honest, trustworthy and loving towards that person.

 The second someone genuine comes into my life, I will be a happy woman. I am giving up on petty, immature soul-less people. Life is too short to spend it on people to don't really care about you. It isn't about looking for someone. If that genuine person truly does exist, somehow they will appear in my life, and I will know it. Someday I hope that person will come, and giving someone the truest me wont feel so frightening. For now I will try to be open minded, and positive. Because In the end that is the the thing I want the most.

Man's Best Friend.

Have you ever been to the humane society? About once a week after high school I would stop by on my way home from school and I would always head strait to the dog room. I didn't stop by to look for a new dog, or admire a favorite. My goal was to go around and pet every single dog there, give them a few minutes and talk to them. Not like psycho baby talk to animals bullshit, but just say hello to them and make them feel comfortable with me. I walked along the cages every week and it hurt to think that most of these animals had been abused, or lacked love from their previous family. If they were young, already started out life alone, but most we left to live for a short time because they were of the chosen few to be adopted. Next time you are at the Humane Society make sure to say hello and give a little of your time to them. I will continue to for the rest of my life as I visit again. 

Hobbies, we all have them.

Since I've began college, I have been obsessed with writing letters. I don't know why, It's like I get a rush when I open my mailbox and there is a letter addressed to me! Unfortunately, you can only expect so many letters back from your friends and family. With everyone being so busy, and most of my recipients being in college as well, and wishing to spend their spare time on other things, I found myself an outlet :) 

 I am now a member of a website called: www.postcrossing.com

 This website connects people from countries around the world. The deal is that you are allowed access to 5 addresses picked at at random from a country you do not live in, and you are to write out a post card and send it to them. When you update your account, and show you have sent a postcard to the person you are assigned, then someone will send one to you! On your account you can make requests for what type of post card and/ or information you'd like to receive. I'd have to say it's pretty cool. I'm getting my post cards tomorrow and starting my new hobby!! On my account I have asked people to send me details and names of their favorite places to go in their city or country so I too one day can possibly experience them as well! 

 I can't wait to get my first postcard :)