Former Hopeless Romantic.

  As I get older, I realize more and more how rare it is to come upon a truly genuine person. I once use to go by the policy: Trust until someone has given you a reason to no longer trust them, and then give them a second chance afterward. So broken trust, and 11 chances later, I think I realize I was looking at this particular situation through rose colored lenses, and a little too much faith in humankind. No, I am not bitter, no I am not Anti- love. I am anti- putting up with people's bull shit :)
I understand everyone has their flaws, everyone makes mistakes, and hey a lie every once and while happens. But when you start doing it all the time, and you can feel good about what you are doing, and avoid keeping your promises, hurt people imensely and continue to find ways to justifying what you are doing and tell yourself that you have some sort of reason... there is something really horribly, and horrifyingly wrong with the way you are thinking.

The result of being that kind of person is destroying other peoples outlook on the world, ability to show feeling, ability to persue love and there overall happiness with themselves.
I guess my personal rules of life are: PEOPLE COME FIRST. I don't care what is going on in your life, but nothing can be more important than people you love. I will always put the people who are there for me, and need help first. When you really care about someone, give them your all, don't make them sit there and pour their heart out to, and let them give you things that you know that you cannot give in return, if that is the case, accept the situation and let that person be happy. Let them move on. And if you care enough you will be honest, trustworthy and loving towards that person.

 The second someone genuine comes into my life, I will be a happy woman. I am giving up on petty, immature soul-less people. Life is too short to spend it on people to don't really care about you. It isn't about looking for someone. If that genuine person truly does exist, somehow they will appear in my life, and I will know it. Someday I hope that person will come, and giving someone the truest me wont feel so frightening. For now I will try to be open minded, and positive. Because In the end that is the the thing I want the most.