Can you see it?

Can't you see in my eyes that there is something tearing me apart.
My eyes well up with tears in times of silence, and solitude.
I see who you are, who you were, who I wish we could be.
Once, deep down I felt you were true, and all my feelings were safe in your hands.
There was no question that you were genuine, and full of love and possibility. 
Once I thought you really were the only one. 
Now, I am hurt. My heart aches every moment, and you created a fear that I can never shake. 
This black ink spot on my heart bled, as you continued to write your own rules.
I spilled my words to you, and you ignored my admiration and sorrow.
One bleak day.. I needed you.
I needed you more than I thought possible. My life was trapped in a dark hole.
You didn't dig me out. You buried me. 
Can you see it?
I have not forgotten. I have not healed. I have not been loved.
I desire you. Why did you not desire me. My feelings never faded, and your loves colors leak into a clear lifeless water. 
I my one. I miss my confidence. I miss your love.